Military Life

I’m a little behind posting so here is our picture from Easter morning.  

My beautiful family!

 

Where did the time go?   Let’s see……..  I’ve had heart surgery, a hysterectomy, a dental implant, 4 tooth crowns, and a bad hip and lower back from a car accident.  WOW!  To see all this on the computer screen it looks like I’m falling apart!  HA!  I laughed and told Kris that by the time I’m 40 I’ll definalty be thru with nursing school, will have had my tummy tuck and lift job by then, and he cant trade me in cause I will be like a totally new woman and that like voids my ten year trade in warranty and ups it to at least 80 or 90.  Seriously, I’m blessed with good health and a family to die for.  I couldnt want anything more. 

Sooooooo, he did get me a diamond anniversary band that matches my other one before he left for Iraq and I got to pick it up from Whitehalls on Saturday.  It’s beautiful!  I’m a spoiled princess!  I’ll post a picture at the end of the week.  I’m waiting on my new digital camera to come in.  The other one crapped out after Kris left along with my vaccuum.  All my electronics are going on strike since he left!  The items I want to die are the dryer and living room TV but that is a joke!  I could sit them out in a rain storm plugged in and yeah they just keep on running like the energizer bunny.  I’m getting off on another tangent which by the way I’m really good at if you havent noticed! 

Honey!  I love you!  I loved my Birthday prize!  Smoochie Woochie!  (since I know you keep up with me while your away reading this crap I blog about HA!)

The adoption is moving forward.  Emily and Zachary are petitioning the courts in Florida to revoke their biological fathers parental rights.  This is a very exciting time for them and I couldn’t be more thrilled that God sent me such a loving and christian father and husband to be everything for us that we needed and craved……..  WOW! 

There are some hidden things that happened to my kids that have come out in the open and we are dealing with them now.  Trust me as a mother you would not wish this on your worst enemy to find out something like this about one of your most precious posessions.  I know God restores, he heals minds, and he can erase the bad.  He is going to do this for my babies!  I trust in HIM and have all faith in HIM that both of them are going to be free from this! 

You might not have gotten yours when I pressed charges but God will be your eternal judge and you cant run from HIM.  My babies DONT lie.  (Luke 17 1-3 Sin will inevitably occur, but woe to the person through whom they occur.  It would be better for him if a millstone were put around his neck and he be thrown into the sea than for him to cause one of these little ones to sin.  Be on your guard!)  I would love nothing more than to get my earthly vengance on you, but that scripture says it all.  God’s going to do it for me!

God knew what he was doing when he blended my amazing little family.  He will see this through as he has done everything else over these past 6 years. 

These past 4 weeks have really flown by.  That is what Kris prayed for the night he left me and the kids.  He prayed that over us and other things of course.  I have been so busy with college, Gavitron’s baseball, Church, and being the  Battalions Key Volunteer Coordinator.  Something about having around 300 wives to look after (and I was appointed by Kris’s LTCOL) while the Marines are deployed will pose itself a challenge some days.  We have had issues range from, spousal abuse, pre-mature babies being born, a mother finding out her baby is going to die as soon as it is born due to the enormous hole in its heart, a woman being so sick with chrones disease she cant take care of her toddler, among various other little things you can image that could happen, does happen.  I am the liason between the USA and Iraq.  Who do they come too?  Me!  The 1st 2 weeks were BAD!  I cried on the phone to Kris asking why did I volunteer for this job when I was aske????.  He just said cause your good at that kind of stuff and it must be a role that God wants you in.  So I pondered and chewed on that for a few days.  So, I said, “okay God”.  I prayed that he would use me and let me be a light to the other woman when I am around them and we are having our pot-luck get togethers.  I asked him to help me not loose my witness in any way in front of them and to be a the best mentor I can be.  I just asked him to use me.  Its been 4 weeks since the guys have left and I want you to know that 4 of  my wives have stated coming to church right along side of me.  I give all the glory to God!  I am nothing and a no body and he is choosing me to be a light to others.  I also feel like he is telling me to start a womans bible study group in my home and I am wrestling with it because I dont know scriptures by heart and I’m not an expert on teaching, the only thing I know is who real God has been in my life.  So the time I am away in Florida I am going to really seek God about how to go about this journey.  One month down and 6 more to go.  I miss Kris like mad.  He is the other half that makes me whole.  I crave his arms around me and long for the touch of his hand.  But for now I will rest in knowing God has his arms around Kris and his hand in Kris’s hand.  I’m okay. 

Woot -Woot!  We are all excited.  Going to go spend some time in Wilmington, go to the beach, play lazer tag, bowling, and do the moves!!!!!  Friday night started off on a good note!  We all went to my friends Atressa’s for a Military Wives Pot-Luck (some thing we do every Friday night since our guys left for Iraq.  We had a great time!  I played with Tyler my 2 week little friend that is really still supposed to be in his moms tummy.  He is a little miracle.  I got so much loving from that little guy.  Well, Emily came in my room at like 4am bawling with her stomach and she NEVER gets anything.  So I jumped up out of a dead sleep and we went to  my bathroom.  I held her hair while she barfed her guts out…..  she then fell asleep on the bathroom rug and I left her there, I did cover her up with a blanket and got her pillow.  She slept there for a little over 6 hours.  When she got up the other end started and once that all got out she was better just running fever till Sunday.  So Sunday I spent spring cleaning Zacks room.  That was a nightmare!  All I have to say is teenager…..

Monday morning at 2am… YES!  I had that @^#%&@^%# mess!  Mine lasted till Thursday.  This was so NOT 24 hours.  I did not eat a thing for 4 days.  When Kris called I told him this was so not the way to loose weight while he was gone. 

During the course of me recovering Gavin gets up Wednesday morning at 5am and I wake to doors slamming and all kinds of noise.  He is the one who always make the messes when he barfs….  I dont know why he does it, but he does.  Kris and I are like, “Dude the toiltet, hello, uh, puke, flush, no mess, everyone wins!”  He refuses to go to the toilet or trash can and will stand there and throw up all over himself.  So I awake to him raking barf up with his hands and washing it down the kitchen and bath room sink and making an even bigger mess by strowing it from the bedroom, to the kitchen, and back to the bathroom……  I almost died of a heart attack right on that spot in the hallway.  He was fine by noon that day and wanted to go out to play but I didnt let him and made him lay down in his room all day and rest.  No fever or the other end.  He got lucky. 

Lets not even talk about Zack.  He heard the word puke and ran like the wind.  I never saw him till dark every day. 

Friday I spent the day cleaning the carpets in the house cause of the nasty vomit smell.  I confess I was too sick to clean Gavins mess, so I got all my Pinesoil and dumped it all over the carpets where the vomit was and kept the dogs locked up and away from trying to lick it up.  Pretty nasty I know!  But, they are dogs…… 

Saturday I was like lets get out of this  house and go to the beach.  I opened all the windows in the house and aired it out while we were gone.  The beach was beautiful and we stayed for about 5 hours.  I missed 4 calls from Kris cause there is no service on the base’s beach.  He understood when he called on Sunday. 

Sunday we went to church and it was such a great sermon!  It was a nice and refreshing word to hear from my hellish week!  I ADORE being a mom and I love my kids all 3 of them to death, but sometimes when your alone and your husband is gone on deployment and this stuff happens like this week did….  it will break the strongest of mothers!

I survived!  But, I NEVER WANT TO REPEAT THAT VACATION!  HA!

God, here we go again,
He is packing all his gear again,
I hide my fear in these blurry tears,
I hold it all in and go on with a grin.
God can he see it?

I am trying so hard to be brave,
Can he feel my pain when we embrace?
My soul aches with every breath I take,
I do not want to feel this way,

God please make this pain go away.
I know while he is away you will keep him safe,
But, this 7 months away from Kris God
Is more than I can take.

God please keep him safe,
But now more than ever please keep me strong,
Help me be everything I can be for our kids while he is gone.

Guide his every step Lord day by day,
Please always shine very bright for Kris,
So he will know the correct path to take. 

Hold tight to Kris,
Be his sword when its time to fight,
And shield his back dear God in the dark of night.

When he lays his head down Lord,
Whether it be in a bed or on a desert floor,
Give him sweet dreams of our love and our home.

I know this is a huge list Father,
However, your Word tells me to ask and you will answer!

I believe in our sacred love,
I believe in him,
I support his call,

My God, my God! Abba Father! I do trust in you!
But, right now God it’s just me and you……

Please fill this void in my heart while he is gone.
Please be my husband, my lover, my friend,
and my biggest supporter.

Help this time pass quickly,
Bring Kris home safe, whole, unharmed,
Unchanged, and healthy.

I will forever praise you and give you glory,

Amen!